by Mike Pas

Mindfulness....what a concept

Breathing....what a concept

Accepting without judging....what a concept

I used to know the Yang-style short form of Tai Chi

I just did Qui Gong for the first time in years 2 days ago

I have been physically sick for over a month but am getting better but the psychological fallout will take awhile

It is hot in the area I live....humid too.

I am an American. I am a combat veteran. I am an emergency nurse.

I woke up....lay in bed and thanked (insert higher power) for another day of life.
To watch over the few friends I have.

I did not shower. I just had to walk 400 metres to the drug store.

I put on my jeans....they fell to the floor....I cursed.

Then I thought maybe the changes I have made did something. The jeans that did not fit 6 months ago, fit.

(don't be hating) I will not be a victim....nor will I allow another human to be one either. Obeying the strict laws....I put my concealed 45 caliber pistol and 2 extra magazines on my person.

A month ago walking 100 metres was difficult....had to stop and rest my lungs.

I mindfully walked to the store and then a wonderful thing happened.

I live in a man cave apartment.

I stopped by the entrance to this 30-year-old apartment complex.

OVER ONE HUNDRED birds were flying and singing as the sun set. A cornucopia of song.

I stopped....I went into a Tai Chi-Qui Gong stance....My spine stretching to the heavens.

360 degrees about me I saw mature trees both deciduous leafed out and healthy oaks. The ferns were upright so green... Annual flowers burst out of some trees.

I stopped. Mindfully breathed. Mindfully opened my eyes, my ears, my heart, my soul.

I am alive. I made it. Today....this moment may be ephemeral but mindfully I embraced the beauty around.

I walked mindfully back home....but with a smile so beautific.

My few friends may not be a lot in numbers but they support me and pray for me. I have made some FRIENDS here at the SME that I forgot about...but they are always here.



Thank you, Mike, for your big heart and your hard-earned insight! ~
Mali & Joe, authors of The Soulmate Experience: A Practical Guide to Creating Extraordinary Relationships52 Prescriptions for Happiness, and the upcoming book The Soulmate Lover, and creators of Mantras for Making Love